I’m only 18 years old and my body is falling apart I feel like an old woman for Christ’s sake

I’m just so so tired.

I utterly detest everything about my appearance.

Unwinding before the weekend in my Jammies and reading up on infectious diseases and pandemics

Of course I’m going to fill out all of my college applications, so I can get the fuck out of heeeeerreeeeeeee :3

It’s that time of year again, the Christmas tree is up, candy canes galore, children anticipating a visit from Santa Claus, the stockings are hung up at the fire place and my family is ready to kill each other.

Ah there’s nothing like the holidays.

Why am I going out when I really don’t feel okay.

I am really not feeling up to it

Sometimes when I’m writing a really clever or funny reply to a conversation via text I cant help snickering and talking to myself “caroline, you’re so funny, why are you so awesome seriously you are soso clever” while I sit there being pleased with myself

I also would like to stop being a lazy fuck who eats to feel better about all the stupid numb bullshit of my everyday manageable misery and actually get in shape and like the way I look and at least feel in control

I made a post about pop punk and tagged it with that. So then pop punk band blogs followed me. How did they not see the post was about how I hate pop punk…..?